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Today i got real tired! While studying i cnt get it into my mind. spend time to study wif friend i'm trying my very best to understand every single topic.

After netball i was real tired! i totally dun have mood! sleep a while and wish to wake up at 8pm but overslept and woke up at 9pm. Trying my best wanting to study but really no mood.

whole day i did not receive a single msg from u. when receive u said about how stress u feel. a prob u face wif ur gf. things that happen cnt be predicted. while smsing, u ask you study? something like this.

i simply say no mood la. I really dun have mood to study perhaps too tired i am trying hard. u said then i throw temper on you. Did i? i did not even do it. You are the one that seems no mood and throwing your temper.

i get real stress over exam. u bomb me such a question in saying no mood dun have to throw temper at u ? MOOD SANK! the time i need encouragement but i got this saying i throw temper when u seems like throwing not me =(

I'm real tired!!! i just need to feel better. In me i noe the best i am not anybody to u. never will i throw temper at u. not at all! if u wanna throw temper at mi when u are bad mood i dun mind. but y say i am the one... =,(

REAL sad ....

Labels: tears i didn't throw temper at all

Today lesson end at 11am so me and cheryl decided to go cck library to study.

OMG! i am real distracted! i could not concentrate was real tired! i nap a while on the desk. I just read through unable to study hard! =X

Soon headed home. Nap a while.. To recharge!

audrey sms and ask if i wanna to study tgt. But i guess today i am being distracted whenever i am outside i cannot concentrate, hence, i reject the offer. Sorry about it !! i guess today is better fo me to study at home. She did not went to the library nor went home. she study under her block to stay away from distaction. Sorry about it!

Many people ask me about my stdy progression! thanks for all the concern! u guys are very nice! U all say if i dunno you all are willing to teach me thank you!!!

Everyone jia you for comon test!

Labels: thanks and sorry

Different people behave differently!

Common test is near should be stress should be real tiring! It has been a long time since i laugh loudly and smiling..

Today eat lunch wif si jia caiyan and cheryl. We all simple laugh like hell. Si jia is slow in term of the joke i said. so i sa she is pentium 3 window 95 while i am latest window 7 wahaha.. she say no! the i say i am 4 gb ram then she is 128 ram. she say where got so slow!

Just having a wonderful lunch! thanks for making the lunch a happening one!!! I be the clown but then i am happy being one. Cus even i can laugh happily!!

Today dun have peer tutoring. lesson shld be ending at 4pm. but i decided to join hui qing and gang to their b stat lecture! Thank god i went! Thank them so much!

They made me change my mind towards friends! They are willing to share. they are not selfish. to them learning is all about sharing! They teaches one another. They give in to all stuff!

I don't like people find you when they are only down and when they are happy they think none bout u. I don't like people being selfish just think about themselves and don't think about others. i don't like people don't share they just keep it to themselves!

Through the journey back home......

i think so much..... perhaps... prove to me that you all are not like that if not, i am really getting real tired. I don't want to put in so much to all friendship and get nothing in returns. I know people always say one give in does not mean u expecting for returns! but then how would one feel when things happen to you and are often leave in a dark side and dark corner!

Labels: why be a subsitute or an alternative

TODAY a fugging long and tiring day!!!

start of the day and i am a bit later for class. BUT thank god teacher is late too =)
Lesson after lessons its real tiring man! OMG! lesson usually end at 3pm but then there is a make up lesson so it become 5pm then end! that is not just the end!

THANK GOD TO MY GOOD CLASSMATE! MAK PRESENTATION TO BE AT 5.15PM. then in the end, presentation only to be start at 6pm and everything ended at 6.50 pm! what the hell!! late! everybody start to grumble!! everybody start to feel angry! y didn't she realise? She simply just do everything tha she want and did not think of others! everybody seems to like anti her! If she is so straight forward in the things she say and the things she wanna do! then i guess...
Good luck dun wait till a day people start to hurt u for real!

Real dead!! TIRED!

randomness....
often not being thought of. The time to be thought of is the time that troubles occurs. Times flies! habits changes, personality changes. attitude changes. nothing remain the same. the only thing that don't change is never being thought of when good things happen. Tiredness!

follow by a few songs...
never had a dream come true!

i got no mood to think of all this anymore. no strength to think more and think hard.
common test ! jia you! after this i guess should be over will be over!

Labels: leave mi alone

friday seems a short day to me...

since morning keep stomach ache =X dying.. till project and netball.. woHOoo.. ok quite fun!end sch i headed home , cus no activity. Msn earlier than usual. quite nice manage to chat wif a few friends.

Some sad over certain issue, some seems happy, some seems weird, some since troubled.. No matter what it is. I still enjoy the conversation to all... =)

till i met my sec sch buddy! Oh my, what i have been thinking all this while once met her everything changes!!! for real... Till talking to her i know what i want! i know to certain i am playing! to certain i am not. to certain i took it for real. to certain is just meant to play. Just i got a clearer view...

we chat listen to song and laugh pretty ok =) thanks my buddy u often make mi talk and think and realise what i want what is the real thinking and feeling in mi =)

Labels: play and real i got an ans

somehow today time flies...

Somehow this week i appear to be not very myself! first is very quiet, till very cheeky, till very socialable, till full of surprises and etc..

I dunno how to say too! To make a friend happy i can pop out wif surprises.. Mayb this is how and what i will be! I often know how to make people happy and feel good. But i often forget how to make myself smile widely =X

Today in sch cheryl is real funny! she pretend that she save us while crossing the road. she push us aside and say i save u. if not will be bang by car.. oh my. she say she save 3 people.In the end si jia say wow u play later when got car nobody save u mayb u kanna bang by car! we all laugh and laugh till no strength to walk! so funny...

funny times here and there!!! all of a sudden. a night many things happen. just like 3 hours time. oh my so many things.. I somehow can just say so much to the person i simply will hack care in life. and hated the person but i said so much about how i feel and everything. I dunno y. U are the one that dun mean anything. just like a nobody but y did i say so much ?

perhaps is becus u are nobody so i totally dun care and say all i feel. that is great to at least somewhere for mi to vent out!!!!!

In me, i dunno why ? there are this few person that can affect my mood so much! they can changes everything about mi! how much i care. how much i go deep to think. just why i also dun understand i also dunno. its very hard to throw out of my mind. why u guys came into my mind and came into my life? hmmm.... wahaha.. is a good thing yet sth not very good too =)

time will simply gave me the answer to what i really want i guess =) i pray...

Labels: thinking of you

I REALLY WISH THAT EVERYTHING CAN GO BACK TO THE PAST!!

I KNOW THINGS WON'T CHANGED! I KNOW IT WILL REMAIN THE SAME LIKE THIS! I SIMPLY JUST HATED EVERYTHING NOW! LEAVE ME ALONE, YES ALL ALONE!

it did not change to be better! it gone to be worst! i simple need time to adapt to all! I thought it will be better but sad to say its getting more tough! the biggest challenge i have to overcome myself! i am just sick of it

Labels: i hated it

A bit shag now! was real tired. Was sick! fever , block nose, vomit, headache...

What a promise when its not being fulfiled? I start to wonder... I hated empty promises. Do not agree on certain things and it the end its not even being mention. I dun like...

When will then be the times that promises are then kept? if cannot fulfill just dun say ....

tired..............

Labels: i dun like empty promises

Today is a sunday! But still have to work as usual! Oh my so tired!

During work it seems like is more n more fun week by weeks. =) cus mi n kim poh joke non stop just to kill time also.. All my thing let him make fun of it!

he said i got many wallet. the cat purse to put mp3 he said its not cat is tiger. the dog purse to put tissue he said its not dog. Bulldog. my handphone got baby minnie. he said its like batman. then the pig he say is not pig but pork! =) wahahaha!! a bit funny!!

Tired man! Finally work end so Happy! by right suppose to meet buddy but then he did not pack his stuff in advance so forget it! In the end, i went to plaza and bought the materials that i needed! headed home slack 30 mins and i start my art piece! wahaha!!!

I think is so cute! one and only piece that is created by me! So tiring! as usual whle doing cuts all over my hand! stupid dumb. poke my hand many times!!! gosh!! but never mind looking at the final piece i am so happy!

Painful and yet glad wif the final piece ! did not take a nap not at all! and now i am like dead! i wish to go orn orn = (

tired tired!!!! headache now!!!!

But its ok its all worth it i guess.... just wish to create something to make a friend happy =) cus my dear friend seems rather gloomy !!! oh my... cheer up =)

Labels: happy days ahead

This few days tired! due to e- learning, have to rush!
i dun like!
but then so happy went i have no more homework !!! yeah!!! Finally everything finish except project! =X this few weeks so busy so did not blog.

Past few days....
i receive a msg. aiya, i noe u wont contact mi much le lo. sth like this.. i dunno hw to make u not think it this way =) cus i am not. becus u said this i try to concern u more dun wan u anyhow think. but then in the end u say i weird.. =X no matter what. i am just myself. time to be there i will always be there =) i am not walking off u . i just think i wanna be the understanding girl or friend =) not giving u any difficuility and dun wan caused u tiredness n stress =X yup... hope u will really understand slowly =)

now i cnt imagine =X past few days i stay in sch like 12 hrs each day almost fainted =X omg drop it! scared =X

public holiday wow! enjoy sia! have fun!!! hey hey the monkey =) hope my dear friend really like it.. Noe u love it lo.. dun say ... lol .... we are real tired for the day! but FUN FUN FUN! dunno how can be describe also .. JUST super fun then expected! we shop like crazy !!!!

Saturday hey hey not to bad i have fun also! but i am toO tired to desribe it le... shall say next few days =X tired tired.... logging off...

to all SMILE no bad mood! =)

Labels: smile

Mayb sometime really is wen feeling down great things happen...

my friend u mention u can pei mi wen i am down . but i noe u are tired. just give each other a break. i noe u nid . i noe i nid. =) things will change to the better right?

Mummy care make me feel people cares. Mummy pat on the head filled my emptiness wif love. Thanks! I noe i am such a kid . but i just as vulnerable =X

sis care. her age she say so much encouraging thing. young yet matured. Thanks! for saying u will be there wen i nid u ..

someone- Thanks for ur appear in late night. unexpected. ur pat also make me felt better =) i will remember life is happy = )

silly mi still nid care..

Labels: thanks i am better now

Recent mood is just sitting a roller coaster!

UPs and Downs... What is happening ? i wonder also ... Thinking hard... loOking for an answer toO... Finally while forcing i got a fair bit of answer i guess they should be the answer...

1) Studies. How much i hated studies in the past yet i have been climbing hard in wanting to achieve something. I dun want ppl to loOk down on me. As in i wish to study as much as i can. I try my best. Now work load is so much, compare to the stress level of sis mayb mine is nothing. But then i can' t take this much stress! i get very restless.. Trying to understand what i dun understand but still its hanging there...

2) somehow at home i seems to close up myself. Now i hardly open up to mum. I dunno why. recent what have been happening i no longer tell mummy. I c she is tired with those stuff ,i dun wish to add up to her, hence, i am unable to talk to anybody...

3) all my best buddy. one busy wif work and handling her family hence, i did not talk to her neither meet up. For another buddy. He is in NS. nothing much i can share with him.

4) I felt i am such a foOl . When i am worrying. actually there isn't a need to worry. I wish to tell u, i am not a liar. i wish all promises can be kept but then i really trying my best already. How much u get angry, u say no, but i noe! i am sensative, without u saying just how u text i know what u are thinking. How then i can make things better? i'm not a liar. when i hear from her that u told her i lie. My heart sank. i did not lie, i just nid time to handle my stuff... haix

5) i dunno what i am thinking. somehow... i dunno... u came to my mind now and then...

Just many things in my mind.. Hoping for better tmr for real!!!

Labels: hoping for a better tml

Today i get real tired!!!!

I try to be as happy as chatty as possible in the morning! but i guess i mention something wrong in the bus. But then i dunno. My mind always been thinking that this frienship won't last. Fear! I dunno how to secure it. I did my very best in putting and giving the best! I really did!

Just somehow i dunno y i feel that there is something blocking i also cannot define... =X is it me the cause? i dunno.. thinking hard...

By right activities was plan accordingly. I made all the promises to my sis! fulfill all that they want and need. But certain part of the day changes. hence, i stay at home for the night! I turn to be silence. I don't talk much. all i do is text n msn and do up blogskin. I dun feel like talking to anyone face to face.

i feel the tiredness how heavy my eyelids are but then i can't slp! Its friday oh man!! Y friday comes! i wish it dun comes...

Labels: HAIX

Today a long hours in sch! 10 hours and i reach home like 815pm ! oh gOosh!! so damn tired that long hours have been studying non-stop what a long day!!! enough of the complain about the long hours of studying....

People thoughts and thinking are simply different! when its time to take a break why things go back to the unexplainable stuff ? I dunno ... Just something random that came to my mind...

A friend of mine have been mentioning about going to my gf. get gf to entertain mi.. Hmmm... i dunno to me and certain friends, gf this term is a way that we may wish to describe friends and sisters! Actually there is just one gf in my mind among friend. Cus she is my sister. We are friends for like 3 to 4 yrs and we started of to be real good since wen enter poly.. though we may not srround each other side not even during lesson time but we share what is deep in us!

Dears i have i noe who to name the dear but even they dunno i name it this way =) is just not telling who is who but saying thank to the person in this form. tiredness in life at times making it unbearable! i am always glad that concern and care is being shown and i felt so love! not knowing well dun mean anything! cus its giving mi opportunity to know a person even more.

In life there is more n more people becoming a mystery treasure box to mi! that i wish to get near and noe more! It make me fall in love just due to curosity....

3 things i wish to say to 3 different people... but they may read yet may not read it..

first person.... (gf)

i noe how much u get lost all cus people making u more n more confuse yet love! but then it does not matter cus i will be here for u alright! if u think he is ur happiness go for it! if u feel its not then stay with it =)

second person.... (close buddy)

many a times u makes me wonder what wrong have i did ? am i such a bad girl to u? i once hook on it. But said good bye... tell me what u wan from me. cus i wish to noe. random-ness from u leave me thousand of question mark. i do not noe what is best u wan from me? what is best i can give to u. Its all that i have given u not enough ?

i dunno. there are many people out there cares about u and u love n crave for it and lead with it. I wish u are this happy too. I wanted to say when friend goes to their love ones and often forgotten about their friends to mi is ok! becus i often leave into this situation. I can do everything just to make a friend smile and laugh!

i can dun hav a single emotions. Just becus i wish friends are just happy than getting anger wen we no longer meet up often. I show all the care and concern i can. i try to keep topic on hold. but i think soon u will get sick of it too. i felt the distance. i felt the anger n fustrations! how much u wish to throw temper at me i can feel it. does not matter... cus i once said, u want just vent all the anger on me and this will make u feel better i understand. Now i still do. I never break that promise. alot of thing i did not mention to u all cus, i dun wish i say and u change immediately and i noe nobody will be happy with.

i just wanna say, go to the door that make u happy n love. the love door u need. But then wen u are tired u can always come back home( me) as a little friend of urs i will still make u happy like be4. ( i noe u wont read it but i wish to say all this. )

Third person... ( dumb dumb)

since morning i was told about how angry u got over certain people!. i try ways to cheer u up. cus its never worth over sickening people. know how much u get stress over certain things n issue. away from bits of it. Then big probs come in. What ever it is. dun find fault at oneself.

get over and done wif. make a change make a difference! i will always be here! i wont leave. dun ask mi to leave cus i wont. changes for the better =) loOking forward to it.. Best of luck! it takes times and courage to admit and speak up! so do it! =)

Lost world i have been! tiredness i have got! give me the most clear answer and response! =) Is just the simple request i have from all =)

Labels: will be here and always will

so coOl wohooOOOOooooo

The talent That i truly admire alot alot !!!!!

Labels: MY LOVE IDOL

When classes end it was suppose to be going home at 1 pm but then cannot cus i have to do itb project wif group mates! Do till quite late then went home! bath already i wanted to go slp but Phone rang.... friend meet me to study together....

Glad today my intention was to do my tutorial BUT i noe i will slack off cus not feeling well... ahem* Thank god went out to study wif fren... Friend was late cus she doze off at home upon reaching she loOk so blur, and forget to bring paper.. muhahaha..

I settle down to study. Though u are late but then i felt thankful cus i get to settle down to study. If i were at home i think, i would have watch tv than study. Tutorial is giving me a headache! But then i enjoy the study time cus i start to be more focus than usual! Hoping more days will comes! i will be more focus in studying! =)

Wow from library we shift to mac! it ended at 11 and was ur last train... i reached home around 1135pm its late! but i think i will learn to treasure more cus i mayb able to slp but then others mayb still mugging n chionging their homework...

Tml shal be a real long day! all the best to ppl having exam =) and all the best to us having a long day! ! ! 10 hrs in sch!!!! just to study!!!

Labels: it draws a closer attention

Early in the morning! So tired back aching! ladies problem...

Thanks for the reminder in bringing jacket... If not i will sure freeze in the class... I am hUngry.. muhahaha.. freezing dying soOn... No class but librian come teach how to research on library sources.. =X

So tired if i could slp at home will be nice!

In mind have been thinking.... Thanks the more i lose the more i gain! How much i felt so cared now! Thanks Thanks=) oh my, u , made my day! muhahahaha.... Thank you so much u made me realise when people dun care but u do! thanks..

Thanks girlfriend also. ur care enlighten me.. u should noe who u are =)

Labels: lovely dear all around

I said i am gan dong and she send <3>

It somehow brighten my day a bit! But still its not my day... many things coming into the mind all of a sudden.. TIRED TIRED TIRED!!!

after sch end at 3 went to settle peer turtoring thingy.. Then went to library to study bstat while waiting for colleen n mei mei... cus its raining headache i dun wish to get wet again! So in the end i choose to wait for them and study in sch... 2 hours have passed phone low batt le.. so i went to find them...

But scared that they have to wait for mi so in the end i use public phone to call . she said that she will be leaving soOn. but then i waited an hour passed finally i saw them.. I am not angry at all..

I am totally not angry for waiting 3 hours. what i worry is they might left. what i worry is i scared waited for nothing =X I dunno. i dunno why i am not angry at all. i could not bring up the temper not at all. i wanted to say i waited for long because i promise in meeting u all! i do not wish to break my promise! i also dun like liar! hence, i want to keep promise dun wan to lie so i waited.

I mayb a silly friend but i dun like liar i dun like people to break promise so i kept mine... that is the silly me but the same time promises to me are so important!

I felt so tired headache! a bit cnt control myself walk home n tears rolled. but a relieved i guess.. vent out all .. that min.. ( misses, hatred, disppointment, anger, tiredness, drowsiness, pain, desire everything! all vent out!!1)

Was so hungry but then wen reach home no food to eat =X forget it..

On tv is my idol.. wahaha she is so handsome i like... =) at least something for the day better than dead me... online n blog..

Thank you so much for the care n concern two of u are so cute! so sweet.. thanks.. i feel a bit better but i am so tired now... no dinner mayb off to bed soOn...

Labels: tired but thank you my dear

Labels: nice and pain

Labels: I LOVE MY FRIENDS I LOVE U ALL

~Tuesday~

after school me and cheryl went to library to study and do project do not wan to waste time =)
Was kind of tired till around 430 a friend join us. we all study and is like so cute cus all of us concentrate in doing our project and stuff that we communicate through msn instead of talking to each other when we are side by side.. coOl huh....

Studying till 6 plus then we went to print approved letter and cheryl left first. me n friend continue study and chit chat a bit... in the end we left sch at 9.40 pm wahaha so late for some time i did not spend my time wisely in studying...

Sorry about it please do not misunderstand... never blame u at all... though i explain to u already.. but i still have to write out to feel better about it.

In the end reach home, wanted to rest but then never. help friend with her project till 3am... hope u are coping fine. dun stress urself up.. k...

wednesday

was real tired dun even feel like wake up! but then have to go some appreciation thingy.

Its was said that the prog was to have lunch, speech , movie. OMG i simply think the event was not nicely plan... =X food dun wish to comment was just @_@

i think we enjoy most is cus friends although all from same campus but this is really the time to chit chat throw worries away! and have fun !!!

Movie time middle a bit bored so i start texting.. then ok la the movie is nice so i continue watching dun text already. action movie i dun really like.. but is cartoon i duno mayb tired ba...

everything ended. cheryl left. and leave wif ting ting, ziyan, nat, mj and mi ....LOTS all fun chit chatting.. everbody change already!!! simply more crazy! even ting ting n nat now super cheeky lo.. I LOVE IT !!! I LOVE U ALL!! HAPPY TIMES...

Labels: the times that i love for this 2 days

Labels: my best buddy forever n ever nothing gonna change

Love u candle.. love makes a person melt. love make a person insane, blind and many more.. is the negative n positive about love.... may everyone find love that melts them and bless them...

Labels: fall in love wif

Today was sick!! I did not attend sch. So as cheryl..

wake up and receive a msg saying must bring umbrella and cover my wounds properly. Thanks appreciate but then i wasn't going to sch. SICK ! inform fren and went back to bed! i am totally knock out man!!

HAIX... so meet cheryl to c doc tgt. went to cck buy candy n ju hua cha for them.. But was sad to hear that the drink wasnt nice. especially went to that shop cus u only drink that shop ju hua cha..if not i could buy from bp is nearer. pass to mei...

the doctor told mi to slp more! yeah i jolly well need alot of slp for instant! damn tired headache just acting on mi. got all medication that can make mi slp! so nice of the doc to take care of my slp =) lol...

SLP SLP SLP SLP SLP that is wat i do the whole afternoon till evening!!! tired...

how do one learn to appreciate ? how do one care? hmmm.... random question.. that i tot of...

the special fren thank you for ur concern, u have been asking mi how i am for recent thanks! appreciate it lots.. i am fine i believe..

Labels: thanks for your concern

Today just a real tired day for mi!!! lesson for bstat seems so shit!!! becus i almost died off!!! STRESS FORMULAS!!! DO I EVEN UNDERSTAND ?

after school meet up wif love amira.. cheryl and me after sch went to find her at cck. We chit chat over many things! things were cleared and i am happy. Was tease some times but was fun! u guys make my life rocks!! really! we all can jolly well shop at lot 1 from like 4 plus or 5 till 9 plus really shopping! wahaha crazy eh.... I LOVE YOU GUYS around!!! i do!! But Sorry u guys should noe what i mean...

How much more can i do ? how can i not be mistaken ? how can i be understand ? how can i be cared? how can i be seen ? just many question ponder in my mind! deep in me it hurts damn badly! i never thot this friend of mine can affect me this badly!

I felt so hurt wif the smses that i have received.. do u noe i am not any spoiler! i never wish to mess up ppl life. i never wish to make ppl think negative. i never wish ppl feel bad nor sad! i wish to tell u how much to look life in a better way. how much i wish u understand that life isnt as bad as u thot. many things are not within control. many things are not what u have expected.

if i am really the bad women then what makes u to believe what i said ? if the things i mention were wrong why choose to listen.. As in things i said is up to u to listen or not to. I try my best in consoling u in any other way! i wish u look it in a better way ... but still i get the scolding.

whenever u scold u just scold. did u went to think hard about all that i have mention be4 scolding mi? i just dun worth a single cent in ur eyes! me as ur friend simply a thrash ba... i am always wrong always at fault! i dunno how much more i can do...

it really reach to the extend that i have blown off... mind is blank.. i replied the way i never ever replied it this way. i am simply mad! simply tired... i feel so much like vomitting! the min i reach home my mind is like bursting! so i sit on the sofa and doze off instead of bath first!!! mentally tiredness!!!

I JUST DO NOT KNOW HOW TO ORGANISE WHAT I REALLY WANNA SAY HOW COME MY MIND GONE SO HAYWIRE THIS MOMENT!

I AM JUST A SIMPLE GIRL. MY MIND IS NOT THAT COMPLICATED NOR CUNNING! THE TIMES THAT I SHOW CARE TO MY FRIENDS ALSO MEAN I NID TO BE CONCERN AND CARE BY FRIENDS! I DUN NID ANY REWARD TO THE THINGS I HAVE DONE!

BUT i dun wish to be scolded... fragile that can be seen. fragile that can be felt. deeply hurt! super hurting.. i am not talking rubbish.... i nid the comfort..

hurting words always happen on me.. it never fails... =(

Labels: i am tired really am

Its a tuesday! lesson really nothing much. If its possible i would have skip lesson. Becus....

bcomm lesson my presentation is over today 2 hrs just to c ppl present. But i choose to go becus the way to c how ppl present and learn. at the same time to know our classmate more.

so all i do is chit chat wif fren and knowing a careless fren forgotten to bring wallet.. hoho... pOor thing la.. chit chat to kill time is the only thing i do today . simply no lesson

lesson will be ending real soOn now also nothing much! omg today is such a boring daylo.. just looking forward to go out wif cheryl later =)

a boring tue i have! if only i can slp more!!!!

Ended lesson went to queensway finally bought the shoe i needed! =X but leg still pain like hell.. Went shopping around tgt wif cheryl! i enjoy it alot! upon shopping receive a call from audrey.. i tot was another prank call wahaha..

audrey ask if i am free to teach her dss. hence, i agreed. she mention if were to meet wif colleen then will be at bp if not i will have to meet her at cck. Hence, i called colleen along ... I noe colleen always say audrey do not have time to meet her. So since audrey is free so get colleen along.. believe u all will have lots to catch up...

but i coud not teach audrey much... cheryl did most of the teaching..sorry about it... Home sweet home.. so tiring! its now my turn to rush my bstat le =X

Labels: felt uncomfortable

sms go cheers buy panadol told to tc, told to go home rest not meet fren, boring micro omg dead...

Presentaion for bcomm, i mention about my weakness and how i have overcome for my life my worries and stuff! this topic something make an impact on me! it just make mi think even more! make mi loOk through my life once again! i simply love it! i cnt forget the days i ever have in ite. it make mi grow so much! it make mi change alot and how i think about my life and myself!

It a learning journey that i have been through and make mi feel that ... learning dun exhausts one mind =) I love learning and will continues.. Listening to everybody presentation kind of make mi noe more about my classmate toO !!! i love this session..

Was sick. Had a headache since early in the morning! Thanks for the concern, have been concering mi how am i , still having headache a not. that is so nice of u ! even get mi to purchase panadol thanks for the reminder i almost forget all bout it! Felt warmth... (hope to heal asap)

though was a bit sick. but met coll n fren. was ill.. but hav to be under the rain =( i forget to bring umbrella.. oh goOsh headache getting worst but no choice! thanks for ur concern.. for the first time coll send some sweet and warmth msg. never seen her like this. she say she is so sweet all along.. haha mayb to ur other fren but never to mi... wahaha... appreciate it ...

a sickly day i ever have!

Labels: HEADACHE, heal mi

I simply felt so tired!!!!

today early in the morning i started working! was kind of blur than expected! Headache since morning! Finally end work looking forward to this moment.. but i coul not go home. becus buddy just wanna meet so if i left home to bath sure one will be missing in not meeting.

I try to tahan all the way and hoping that evening will soOn arrive. I slack and kill all my time finally met one and we went shopping for my stuff.. I simply drag my foot all the way. just dunno y.. my mind just could stop thinking.. how much i feel i am about to collapse =X

RANDOM.... today i saw one super duper cute minnie =P Minnie hugging mickey.. so in love wif this.. But then i did not bring the minnie home... =( i will miss u in my slp that will be enough...

waited for 3 pm becus that is the time soOn we all will meet another buddy. but wen 3.27pm called received i tot was the arrival but then... was just a call to inform later what is the plan.. it does not matter... i am still waiting.. becus wat matters is everybody feel happy..

headache headache.. my vision got blurred! i am tired.. but i still smile... i knew i wont reach home in the evening .. But then i guess my face by that time simply gone sour! becus i am really having a terribly headache! ARG!!! shift my attention to others not to think of the pain.. but can't...

all of a sudden i felt a little happiness.. the appear.. but still headache can't be erased!!!

Current NO MOOD!!! headache and how come everybody got prob... i dun wan c anyone sad =( i dun wan !! to a few of u i noe u faces prob.. i hope u guys get donw wif ... move on...

i simply need painkiller!!!!!!!

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This week have been a tiring yet fun n loving week..

Studies schedule seems a bit pack! a bit tired. but i am still finding more motivation for studying.. More n More effort needed for my studies jia you ba!!

Out of so many weekdays, everyday i have been going to sch and meeting colleen. Still not too bad. Especially on thursday! teach audrey excel then went to meet colleen tgt. Then we all went to Marsiling then to causeway... We were all having fun n loving times! went home only at late hour. So tired but i sure have lots lots of memorable times!!!

Friday netball training omg! simply dead. nearly have to run 5 rounds in stadium =( scared me off!!! heng ar.. tired tired the tiredness last till today....

Saturday, early in the morning wake up by colleen and xiao yu.. almost died cus cnt slp wahaha.. but did not blame them becus i understand =) then packet MOS to colleen we all chat happily. then xiao yu reach soOn i left to meet jingwei.. OMG rashes all over his body! ARG! he slim down alot also! that was simply crazy! then meet ivy after he left! chit chat away then in the end, send xiao yu off then went back to colleen house bee also there =)

Its raining heavily! so i went to packet kfc for them.. we all eat togther happily!! Long time since a happy and warmth meal together! we all chit chat have fun in the roOm... hAhaha.. the bloster so nice to hug lo.. the blanket and stuff wahaha! for the first time i really use ppl bed stuff muhahaha!!!! i wan change pillow la =( i wan comfortable bloster =)

Tired man!! but i really enjoy today just 3 of us!!!! wahaha!! fun fun fun!!! long time since we slack this much and having fun!! I will miss this days..

tmr work oh no~tired! wish no work ... =( but yes for the pay...

Labels: i love and misses this few days

Another face that i make it out using my breakfast!!!

Its not about how expensive it is! Its not about how luxury it is! Its simply all about sincere! Its may be all the simplest dishes but its for sure the tasty one! because it uses effort, time, sincere to prepare!

Thank you my dear friend! You have been this nice to make breakfast and coOk dinner! tons of thank you i wish to tell her! but just sms her in short saying thank you! i do not know how then i can tell u how thankful i can be =)

For the first time friend cook mi dinner, only got i cook dinner for friend. For the first time i receive breakfast from friend. I only used to receive breakfast from mum becus she prepare for sis so shun bian prepare for me..

Thanks thanks thanks.....

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Labels: a day i simply love it so much

my friday lesson have simply change the entire me! it make me reflect alot alot till i felt i am such a lucky girl!

I dunno why i just feel that i am so lucky! when ever the times that i cnt get over it wif something there will be something or someone to say something and enlighten me in moving on...

My CATS teacher make me simply stop everything and listen to him! His words enlighten me!

He said something like. we are not vegetables or carrot! we are human so we can think and also we must learn to let go and move on! So what ever things it is. we must learn to take it easy and move on. So holiday mood time to say good bye to holiday mood and move on to motivating mood and start studying!

alot alot of things!!! i just wan to say big thank to this teacher ! i love my life now! i walk out of everything! and now i am leading better really way better! laughters everywhere now!

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Because you love me.

I am totally in love with this song! but the lyrics and music simply touches my heart! My mood is being drive on by this song. So emo. so sad. heart almost died... =X lol...

I really love this song i think is so meaningful worth listening..
every word touches my heart. every word and sentence simply is something that seems so familiar. tears rolled. just too into it ...

Was really tired today almost died off... splitting soOn!

i need a good slp tonight sweet dreams!

Labels: i need a sweet dreams

should be posting about friday meet up wif good buddies, sat malaysia trip or even sunday a tiring working n boring day... or mon sch days how was it.. but skip all those till photos if not to better happening mood then say about it...


Today sch end early so went out wif fren and met new friends too.. by righ everything turn out to be happy. i uses a new mood to c everything after a long time of not meeting... but sad to say it turn out damn fuck at the back!!!


hmmm... u are being hurt, u suffered big blow to u. worry that u wont have ur meals but thank, u did. quietly u finish up everything. and head back home. was simply worried i did not noe if u head home hence , browse at it. sudden did not catch it, too many ppl and its too dark my eye sight was pretty bad. i head to take bus home. but then i still worried. hence, i called up someone u are close to and ask how? i did not noe if u went home.

In the end i walk back and walk around the block area. everywhere just to check if u are there. U are not it makes mi more worried. sudden the one on the line said u were online. happy that u head home but then u wanted to drink that is wat u sms mi and u wanted to leave home is what u told her. So all i could do is to wait under the blk just in case u went off to do silly thing.

saw the mum i dunno what to say. the mum cal mi to go up , i said not i am going off soOn. actually i was real panic i dunno what to do. still i waited and she confirm that she will be at home. then is already 9 plus then i left. and head back home. u may not noe how much i am worried. i may not understand the sufferings. but i face an equal pain once! i understand how it felt like wen being hurt by the one that u love.

PAIN ! i understand... but u text mi in saying... i must be happy see that u suffer. Oh my do u noe how much i am worried and u said this it simply hurt me. while worrying u i almost forget about my safety. u dunno how much i wish to tell u i feel equal pain for u. cus i dun wish u to suffer over All this kind of thing.

wen i worry and panic u tot i was happy HAIX! i noe u i take time to understand u . i took effort to even noe more than i need. why u do not understand mi ? just y ? am i transparent that u cant c and dun even bother to noe? i think so...

I wasn't happy at all! i felt sorry for u! but u will never understand... i dun wan u to understand. i wan u to be happy. i wan u to simply just even to take a simple glance at mi... noe how i really feel. i actually uses what kind of attitude to c it ... INJURED!

Labels: just a glance will do

Name: ah tingz
Age: 20 (2009)
Birthday: 20 august 1989
Hates: Liar, empty promises, Alone, Not being cared
Loves: Singing, surprises, candy(mint), Piggy and minnie

I don't like to be alone, i don't like to people come and goes as they like
If one bother to show more concern, i will goes your ways
I love lovely surprises, dun surprise me with fear and worries!


got a special someone
able to excel in studies
get all the attention
be a special someone
away from worries
away from sadness
Got tons of love and care

Today i got real tired! While studying i cnt get it into my mind. spend time to study wif friend i'm trying my very best to understand every single topic.

After netball i was real tired! i totally dun have mood! sleep a while and wish to wake up at 8pm but overslept and woke up at 9pm. Trying my best wanting to study but really no mood.

whole day i did not receive a single msg from u. when receive u said about how stress u feel. a prob u face wif ur gf. things that happen cnt be predicted. while smsing, u ask you study? something like this.

i simply say no mood la. I really dun have mood to study perhaps too tired i am trying hard. u said then i throw temper on you. Did i? i did not even do it. You are the one that seems no mood and throwing your temper.

i get real stress over exam. u bomb me such a question in saying no mood dun have to throw temper at u ? MOOD SANK! the time i need encouragement but i got this saying i throw temper when u seems like throwing not me =(

I'm real tired!!! i just need to feel better. In me i noe the best i am not anybody to u. never will i throw temper at u. not at all! if u wanna throw temper at mi when u are bad mood i dun mind. but y say i am the one... =,(

REAL sad ....

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Today lesson end at 11am so me and cheryl decided to go cck library to study.

OMG! i am real distracted! i could not concentrate was real tired! i nap a while on the desk. I just read through unable to study hard! =X

Soon headed home. Nap a while.. To recharge!

audrey sms and ask if i wanna to study tgt. But i guess today i am being distracted whenever i am outside i cannot concentrate, hence, i reject the offer. Sorry about it !! i guess today is better fo me to study at home. She did not went to the library nor went home. she study under her block to stay away from distaction. Sorry about it!

Many people ask me about my stdy progression! thanks for all the concern! u guys are very nice! U all say if i dunno you all are willing to teach me thank you!!!

Everyone jia you for comon test!

Labels: thanks and sorry

Different people behave differently!

Common test is near should be stress should be real tiring! It has been a long time since i laugh loudly and smiling..

Today eat lunch wif si jia caiyan and cheryl. We all simple laugh like hell. Si jia is slow in term of the joke i said. so i sa she is pentium 3 window 95 while i am latest window 7 wahaha.. she say no! the i say i am 4 gb ram then she is 128 ram. she say where got so slow!

Just having a wonderful lunch! thanks for making the lunch a happening one!!! I be the clown but then i am happy being one. Cus even i can laugh happily!!

Today dun have peer tutoring. lesson shld be ending at 4pm. but i decided to join hui qing and gang to their b stat lecture! Thank god i went! Thank them so much!

They made me change my mind towards friends! They are willing to share. they are not selfish. to them learning is all about sharing! They teaches one another. They give in to all stuff!

I don't like people find you when they are only down and when they are happy they think none bout u. I don't like people being selfish just think about themselves and don't think about others. i don't like people don't share they just keep it to themselves!

Through the journey back home......

i think so much..... perhaps... prove to me that you all are not like that if not, i am really getting real tired. I don't want to put in so much to all friendship and get nothing in returns. I know people always say one give in does not mean u expecting for returns! but then how would one feel when things happen to you and are often leave in a dark side and dark corner!

Labels: why be a subsitute or an alternative

TODAY a fugging long and tiring day!!!

start of the day and i am a bit later for class. BUT thank god teacher is late too =)
Lesson after lessons its real tiring man! OMG! lesson usually end at 3pm but then there is a make up lesson so it become 5pm then end! that is not just the end!

THANK GOD TO MY GOOD CLASSMATE! MAK PRESENTATION TO BE AT 5.15PM. then in the end, presentation only to be start at 6pm and everything ended at 6.50 pm! what the hell!! late! everybody start to grumble!! everybody start to feel angry! y didn't she realise? She simply just do everything tha she want and did not think of others! everybody seems to like anti her! If she is so straight forward in the things she say and the things she wanna do! then i guess...
Good luck dun wait till a day people start to hurt u for real!

Real dead!! TIRED!

randomness....
often not being thought of. The time to be thought of is the time that troubles occurs. Times flies! habits changes, personality changes. attitude changes. nothing remain the same. the only thing that don't change is never being thought of when good things happen. Tiredness!

follow by a few songs...
never had a dream come true!

i got no mood to think of all this anymore. no strength to think more and think hard.
common test ! jia you! after this i guess should be over will be over!

Labels: leave mi alone

friday seems a short day to me...

since morning keep stomach ache =X dying.. till project and netball.. woHOoo.. ok quite fun!end sch i headed home , cus no activity. Msn earlier than usual. quite nice manage to chat wif a few friends.

Some sad over certain issue, some seems happy, some seems weird, some since troubled.. No matter what it is. I still enjoy the conversation to all... =)

till i met my sec sch buddy! Oh my, what i have been thinking all this while once met her everything changes!!! for real... Till talking to her i know what i want! i know to certain i am playing! to certain i am not. to certain i took it for real. to certain is just meant to play. Just i got a clearer view...

we chat listen to song and laugh pretty ok =) thanks my buddy u often make mi talk and think and realise what i want what is the real thinking and feeling in mi =)

Labels: play and real i got an ans

somehow today time flies...

Somehow this week i appear to be not very myself! first is very quiet, till very cheeky, till very socialable, till full of surprises and etc..

I dunno how to say too! To make a friend happy i can pop out wif surprises.. Mayb this is how and what i will be! I often know how to make people happy and feel good. But i often forget how to make myself smile widely =X

Today in sch cheryl is real funny! she pretend that she save us while crossing the road. she push us aside and say i save u. if not will be bang by car.. oh my. she say she save 3 people.In the end si jia say wow u play later when got car nobody save u mayb u kanna bang by car! we all laugh and laugh till no strength to walk! so funny...

funny times here and there!!! all of a sudden. a night many things happen. just like 3 hours time. oh my so many things.. I somehow can just say so much to the person i simply will hack care in life. and hated the person but i said so much about how i feel and everything. I dunno y. U are the one that dun mean anything. just like a nobody but y did i say so much ?

perhaps is becus u are nobody so i totally dun care and say all i feel. that is great to at least somewhere for mi to vent out!!!!!

In me, i dunno why ? there are this few person that can affect my mood so much! they can changes everything about mi! how much i care. how much i go deep to think. just why i also dun understand i also dunno. its very hard to throw out of my mind. why u guys came into my mind and came into my life? hmmm.... wahaha.. is a good thing yet sth not very good too =)

time will simply gave me the answer to what i really want i guess =) i pray...

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I REALLY WISH THAT EVERYTHING CAN GO BACK TO THE PAST!!

I KNOW THINGS WON'T CHANGED! I KNOW IT WILL REMAIN THE SAME LIKE THIS! I SIMPLY JUST HATED EVERYTHING NOW! LEAVE ME ALONE, YES ALL ALONE!

it did not change to be better! it gone to be worst! i simple need time to adapt to all! I thought it will be better but sad to say its getting more tough! the biggest challenge i have to overcome myself! i am just sick of it

Labels: i hated it

A bit shag now! was real tired. Was sick! fever , block nose, vomit, headache...

What a promise when its not being fulfiled? I start to wonder... I hated empty promises. Do not agree on certain things and it the end its not even being mention. I dun like...

When will then be the times that promises are then kept? if cannot fulfill just dun say ....

tired..............

Labels: i dun like empty promises

Today is a sunday! But still have to work as usual! Oh my so tired!

During work it seems like is more n more fun week by weeks. =) cus mi n kim poh joke non stop just to kill time also.. All my thing let him make fun of it!

he said i got many wallet. the cat purse to put mp3 he said its not cat is tiger. the dog purse to put tissue he said its not dog. Bulldog. my handphone got baby minnie. he said its like batman. then the pig he say is not pig but pork! =) wahahaha!! a bit funny!!

Tired man! Finally work end so Happy! by right suppose to meet buddy but then he did not pack his stuff in advance so forget it! In the end, i went to plaza and bought the materials that i needed! headed home slack 30 mins and i start my art piece! wahaha!!!

I think is so cute! one and only piece that is created by me! So tiring! as usual whle doing cuts all over my hand! stupid dumb. poke my hand many times!!! gosh!! but never mind looking at the final piece i am so happy!

Painful and yet glad wif the final piece ! did not take a nap not at all! and now i am like dead! i wish to go orn orn = (

tired tired!!!! headache now!!!!

But its ok its all worth it i guess.... just wish to create something to make a friend happy =) cus my dear friend seems rather gloomy !!! oh my... cheer up =)

Labels: happy days ahead

This few days tired! due to e- learning, have to rush!
i dun like!
but then so happy went i have no more homework !!! yeah!!! Finally everything finish except project! =X this few weeks so busy so did not blog.

Past few days....
i receive a msg. aiya, i noe u wont contact mi much le lo. sth like this.. i dunno hw to make u not think it this way =) cus i am not. becus u said this i try to concern u more dun wan u anyhow think. but then in the end u say i weird.. =X no matter what. i am just myself. time to be there i will always be there =) i am not walking off u . i just think i wanna be the understanding girl or friend =) not giving u any difficuility and dun wan caused u tiredness n stress =X yup... hope u will really understand slowly =)

now i cnt imagine =X past few days i stay in sch like 12 hrs each day almost fainted =X omg drop it! scared =X

public holiday wow! enjoy sia! have fun!!! hey hey the monkey =) hope my dear friend really like it.. Noe u love it lo.. dun say ... lol .... we are real tired for the day! but FUN FUN FUN! dunno how can be describe also .. JUST super fun then expected! we shop like crazy !!!!

Saturday hey hey not to bad i have fun also! but i am toO tired to desribe it le... shall say next few days =X tired tired.... logging off...

to all SMILE no bad mood! =)

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Mayb sometime really is wen feeling down great things happen...

my friend u mention u can pei mi wen i am down . but i noe u are tired. just give each other a break. i noe u nid . i noe i nid. =) things will change to the better right?

Mummy care make me feel people cares. Mummy pat on the head filled my emptiness wif love. Thanks! I noe i am such a kid . but i just as vulnerable =X

sis care. her age she say so much encouraging thing. young yet matured. Thanks! for saying u will be there wen i nid u ..

someone- Thanks for ur appear in late night. unexpected. ur pat also make me felt better =) i will remember life is happy = )

silly mi still nid care..

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Recent mood is just sitting a roller coaster!

UPs and Downs... What is happening ? i wonder also ... Thinking hard... loOking for an answer toO... Finally while forcing i got a fair bit of answer i guess they should be the answer...

1) Studies. How much i hated studies in the past yet i have been climbing hard in wanting to achieve something. I dun want ppl to loOk down on me. As in i wish to study as much as i can. I try my best. Now work load is so much, compare to the stress level of sis mayb mine is nothing. But then i can' t take this much stress! i get very restless.. Trying to understand what i dun understand but still its hanging there...

2) somehow at home i seems to close up myself. Now i hardly open up to mum. I dunno why. recent what have been happening i no longer tell mummy. I c she is tired with those stuff ,i dun wish to add up to her, hence, i am unable to talk to anybody...

3) all my best buddy. one busy wif work and handling her family hence, i did not talk to her neither meet up. For another buddy. He is in NS. nothing much i can share with him.

4) I felt i am such a foOl . When i am worrying. actually there isn't a need to worry. I wish to tell u, i am not a liar. i wish all promises can be kept but then i really trying my best already. How much u get angry, u say no, but i noe! i am sensative, without u saying just how u text i know what u are thinking. How then i can make things better? i'm not a liar. when i hear from her that u told her i lie. My heart sank. i did not lie, i just nid time to handle my stuff... haix

5) i dunno what i am thinking. somehow... i dunno... u came to my mind now and then...

Just many things in my mind.. Hoping for better tmr for real!!!

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Today i get real tired!!!!

I try to be as happy as chatty as possible in the morning! but i guess i mention something wrong in the bus. But then i dunno. My mind always been thinking that this frienship won't last. Fear! I dunno how to secure it. I did my very best in putting and giving the best! I really did!

Just somehow i dunno y i feel that there is something blocking i also cannot define... =X is it me the cause? i dunno.. thinking hard...

By right activities was plan accordingly. I made all the promises to my sis! fulfill all that they want and need. But certain part of the day changes. hence, i stay at home for the night! I turn to be silence. I don't talk much. all i do is text n msn and do up blogskin. I dun feel like talking to anyone face to face.

i feel the tiredness how heavy my eyelids are but then i can't slp! Its friday oh man!! Y friday comes! i wish it dun comes...

Labels: HAIX

Today a long hours in sch! 10 hours and i reach home like 815pm ! oh gOosh!! so damn tired that long hours have been studying non-stop what a long day!!! enough of the complain about the long hours of studying....

People thoughts and thinking are simply different! when its time to take a break why things go back to the unexplainable stuff ? I dunno ... Just something random that came to my mind...

A friend of mine have been mentioning about going to my gf. get gf to entertain mi.. Hmmm... i dunno to me and certain friends, gf this term is a way that we may wish to describe friends and sisters! Actually there is just one gf in my mind among friend. Cus she is my sister. We are friends for like 3 to 4 yrs and we started of to be real good since wen enter poly.. though we may not srround each other side not even during lesson time but we share what is deep in us!

Dears i have i noe who to name the dear but even they dunno i name it this way =) is just not telling who is who but saying thank to the person in this form. tiredness in life at times making it unbearable! i am always glad that concern and care is being shown and i felt so love! not knowing well dun mean anything! cus its giving mi opportunity to know a person even more.

In life there is more n more people becoming a mystery treasure box to mi! that i wish to get near and noe more! It make me fall in love just due to curosity....

3 things i wish to say to 3 different people... but they may read yet may not read it..

first person.... (gf)

i noe how much u get lost all cus people making u more n more confuse yet love! but then it does not matter cus i will be here for u alright! if u think he is ur happiness go for it! if u feel its not then stay with it =)

second person.... (close buddy)

many a times u makes me wonder what wrong have i did ? am i such a bad girl to u? i once hook on it. But said good bye... tell me what u wan from me. cus i wish to noe. random-ness from u leave me thousand of question mark. i do not noe what is best u wan from me? what is best i can give to u. Its all that i have given u not enough ?

i dunno. there are many people out there cares about u and u love n crave for it and lead with it. I wish u are this happy too. I wanted to say when friend goes to their love ones and often forgotten about their friends to mi is ok! becus i often leave into this situation. I can do everything just to make a friend smile and laugh!

i can dun hav a single emotions. Just becus i wish friends are just happy than getting anger wen we no longer meet up often. I show all the care and concern i can. i try to keep topic on hold. but i think soon u will get sick of it too. i felt the distance. i felt the anger n fustrations! how much u wish to throw temper at me i can feel it. does not matter... cus i once said, u want just vent all the anger on me and this will make u feel better i understand. Now i still do. I never break that promise. alot of thing i did not mention to u all cus, i dun wish i say and u change immediately and i noe nobody will be happy with.

i just wanna say, go to the door that make u happy n love. the love door u need. But then wen u are tired u can always come back home( me) as a little friend of urs i will still make u happy like be4. ( i noe u wont read it but i wish to say all this. )

Third person... ( dumb dumb)

since morning i was told about how angry u got over certain people!. i try ways to cheer u up. cus its never worth over sickening people. know how much u get stress over certain things n issue. away from bits of it. Then big probs come in. What ever it is. dun find fault at oneself.

get over and done wif. make a change make a difference! i will always be here! i wont leave. dun ask mi to leave cus i wont. changes for the better =) loOking forward to it.. Best of luck! it takes times and courage to admit and speak up! so do it! =)

Lost world i have been! tiredness i have got! give me the most clear answer and response! =) Is just the simple request i have from all =)

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so coOl wohooOOOOooooo

The talent That i truly admire alot alot !!!!!

Labels: MY LOVE IDOL

When classes end it was suppose to be going home at 1 pm but then cannot cus i have to do itb project wif group mates! Do till quite late then went home! bath already i wanted to go slp but Phone rang.... friend meet me to study together....

Glad today my intention was to do my tutorial BUT i noe i will slack off cus not feeling well... ahem* Thank god went out to study wif fren... Friend was late cus she doze off at home upon reaching she loOk so blur, and forget to bring paper.. muhahaha..

I settle down to study. Though u are late but then i felt thankful cus i get to settle down to study. If i were at home i think, i would have watch tv than study. Tutorial is giving me a headache! But then i enjoy the study time cus i start to be more focus than usual! Hoping more days will comes! i will be more focus in studying! =)

Wow from library we shift to mac! it ended at 11 and was ur last train... i reached home around 1135pm its late! but i think i will learn to treasure more cus i mayb able to slp but then others mayb still mugging n chionging their homework...

Tml shal be a real long day! all the best to ppl having exam =) and all the best to us having a long day! ! ! 10 hrs in sch!!!! just to study!!!

Labels: it draws a closer attention

Early in the morning! So tired back aching! ladies problem...

Thanks for the reminder in bringing jacket... If not i will sure freeze in the class... I am hUngry.. muhahaha.. freezing dying soOn... No class but librian come teach how to research on library sources.. =X

So tired if i could slp at home will be nice!

In mind have been thinking.... Thanks the more i lose the more i gain! How much i felt so cared now! Thanks Thanks=) oh my, u , made my day! muhahahaha.... Thank you so much u made me realise when people dun care but u do! thanks..

Thanks girlfriend also. ur care enlighten me.. u should noe who u are =)

Labels: lovely dear all around

I said i am gan dong and she send <3>

It somehow brighten my day a bit! But still its not my day... many things coming into the mind all of a sudden.. TIRED TIRED TIRED!!!

after sch end at 3 went to settle peer turtoring thingy.. Then went to library to study bstat while waiting for colleen n mei mei... cus its raining headache i dun wish to get wet again! So in the end i choose to wait for them and study in sch... 2 hours have passed phone low batt le.. so i went to find them...

But scared that they have to wait for mi so in the end i use public phone to call . she said that she will be leaving soOn. but then i waited an hour passed finally i saw them.. I am not angry at all..

I am totally not angry for waiting 3 hours. what i worry is they might left. what i worry is i scared waited for nothing =X I dunno. i dunno why i am not angry at all. i could not bring up the temper not at all. i wanted to say i waited for long because i promise in meeting u all! i do not wish to break my promise! i also dun like liar! hence, i want to keep promise dun wan to lie so i waited.

I mayb a silly friend but i dun like liar i dun like people to break promise so i kept mine... that is the silly me but the same time promises to me are so important!

I felt so tired headache! a bit cnt control myself walk home n tears rolled. but a relieved i guess.. vent out all .. that min.. ( misses, hatred, disppointment, anger, tiredness, drowsiness, pain, desire everything! all vent out!!1)

Was so hungry but then wen reach home no food to eat =X forget it..

On tv is my idol.. wahaha she is so handsome i like... =) at least something for the day better than dead me... online n blog..

Thank you so much for the care n concern two of u are so cute! so sweet.. thanks.. i feel a bit better but i am so tired now... no dinner mayb off to bed soOn...

Labels: tired but thank you my dear

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Labels: I LOVE MY FRIENDS I LOVE U ALL

~Tuesday~

after school me and cheryl went to library to study and do project do not wan to waste time =)
Was kind of tired till around 430 a friend join us. we all study and is like so cute cus all of us concentrate in doing our project and stuff that we communicate through msn instead of talking to each other when we are side by side.. coOl huh....

Studying till 6 plus then we went to print approved letter and cheryl left first. me n friend continue study and chit chat a bit... in the end we left sch at 9.40 pm wahaha so late for some time i did not spend my time wisely in studying...

Sorry about it please do not misunderstand... never blame u at all... though i explain to u already.. but i still have to write out to feel better about it.

In the end reach home, wanted to rest but then never. help friend with her project till 3am... hope u are coping fine. dun stress urself up.. k...

wednesday

was real tired dun even feel like wake up! but then have to go some appreciation thingy.

Its was said that the prog was to have lunch, speech , movie. OMG i simply think the event was not nicely plan... =X food dun wish to comment was just @_@

i think we enjoy most is cus friends although all from same campus but this is really the time to chit chat throw worries away! and have fun !!!

Movie time middle a bit bored so i start texting.. then ok la the movie is nice so i continue watching dun text already. action movie i dun really like.. but is cartoon i duno mayb tired ba...

everything ended. cheryl left. and leave wif ting ting, ziyan, nat, mj and mi ....LOTS all fun chit chatting.. everbody change already!!! simply more crazy! even ting ting n nat now super cheeky lo.. I LOVE IT !!! I LOVE U ALL!! HAPPY TIMES...

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Labels: my best buddy forever n ever nothing gonna change

Love u candle.. love makes a person melt. love make a person insane, blind and many more.. is the negative n positive about love.... may everyone find love that melts them and bless them...

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Today was sick!! I did not attend sch. So as cheryl..

wake up and receive a msg saying must bring umbrella and cover my wounds properly. Thanks appreciate but then i wasn't going to sch. SICK ! inform fren and went back to bed! i am totally knock out man!!

HAIX... so meet cheryl to c doc tgt. went to cck buy candy n ju hua cha for them.. But was sad to hear that the drink wasnt nice. especially went to that shop cus u only drink that shop ju hua cha..if not i could buy from bp is nearer. pass to mei...

the doctor told mi to slp more! yeah i jolly well need alot of slp for instant! damn tired headache just acting on mi. got all medication that can make mi slp! so nice of the doc to take care of my slp =) lol...

SLP SLP SLP SLP SLP that is wat i do the whole afternoon till evening!!! tired...

how do one learn to appreciate ? how do one care? hmmm.... random question.. that i tot of...

the special fren thank you for ur concern, u have been asking mi how i am for recent thanks! appreciate it lots.. i am fine i believe..

Labels: thanks for your concern

Today just a real tired day for mi!!! lesson for bstat seems so shit!!! becus i almost died off!!! STRESS FORMULAS!!! DO I EVEN UNDERSTAND ?

after school meet up wif love amira.. cheryl and me after sch went to find her at cck. We chit chat over many things! things were cleared and i am happy. Was tease some times but was fun! u guys make my life rocks!! really! we all can jolly well shop at lot 1 from like 4 plus or 5 till 9 plus really shopping! wahaha crazy eh.... I LOVE YOU GUYS around!!! i do!! But Sorry u guys should noe what i mean...

How much more can i do ? how can i not be mistaken ? how can i be understand ? how can i be cared? how can i be seen ? just many question ponder in my mind! deep in me it hurts damn badly! i never thot this friend of mine can affect me this badly!

I felt so hurt wif the smses that i have received.. do u noe i am not any spoiler! i never wish to mess up ppl life. i never wish to make ppl think negative. i never wish ppl feel bad nor sad! i wish to tell u how much to look life in a better way. how much i wish u understand that life isnt as bad as u thot. many things are not within control. many things are not what u have expected.

if i am really the bad women then what makes u to believe what i said ? if the things i mention were wrong why choose to listen.. As in things i said is up to u to listen or not to. I try my best in consoling u in any other way! i wish u look it in a better way ... but still i get the scolding.

whenever u scold u just scold. did u went to think hard about all that i have mention be4 scolding mi? i just dun worth a single cent in ur eyes! me as ur friend simply a thrash ba... i am always wrong always at fault! i dunno how much more i can do...

it really reach to the extend that i have blown off... mind is blank.. i replied the way i never ever replied it this way. i am simply mad! simply tired... i feel so much like vomitting! the min i reach home my mind is like bursting! so i sit on the sofa and doze off instead of bath first!!! mentally tiredness!!!

I JUST DO NOT KNOW HOW TO ORGANISE WHAT I REALLY WANNA SAY HOW COME MY MIND GONE SO HAYWIRE THIS MOMENT!

I AM JUST A SIMPLE GIRL. MY MIND IS NOT THAT COMPLICATED NOR CUNNING! THE TIMES THAT I SHOW CARE TO MY FRIENDS ALSO MEAN I NID TO BE CONCERN AND CARE BY FRIENDS! I DUN NID ANY REWARD TO THE THINGS I HAVE DONE!

BUT i dun wish to be scolded... fragile that can be seen. fragile that can be felt. deeply hurt! super hurting.. i am not talking rubbish.... i nid the comfort..

hurting words always happen on me.. it never fails... =(

Labels: i am tired really am

Its a tuesday! lesson really nothing much. If its possible i would have skip lesson. Becus....

bcomm lesson my presentation is over today 2 hrs just to c ppl present. But i choose to go becus the way to c how ppl present and learn. at the same time to know our classmate more.

so all i do is chit chat wif fren and knowing a careless fren forgotten to bring wallet.. hoho... pOor thing la.. chit chat to kill time is the only thing i do today . simply no lesson

lesson will be ending real soOn now also nothing much! omg today is such a boring daylo.. just looking forward to go out wif cheryl later =)

a boring tue i have! if only i can slp more!!!!

Ended lesson went to queensway finally bought the shoe i needed! =X but leg still pain like hell.. Went shopping around tgt wif cheryl! i enjoy it alot! upon shopping receive a call from audrey.. i tot was another prank call wahaha..

audrey ask if i am free to teach her dss. hence, i agreed. she mention if were to meet wif colleen then will be at bp if not i will have to meet her at cck. Hence, i called colleen along ... I noe colleen always say audrey do not have time to meet her. So since audrey is free so get colleen along.. believe u all will have lots to catch up...

but i coud not teach audrey much... cheryl did most of the teaching..sorry about it... Home sweet home.. so tiring! its now my turn to rush my bstat le =X

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sms go cheers buy panadol told to tc, told to go home rest not meet fren, boring micro omg dead...

Presentaion for bcomm, i mention about my weakness and how i have overcome for my life my worries and stuff! this topic something make an impact on me! it just make mi think even more! make mi loOk through my life once again! i simply love it! i cnt forget the days i ever have in ite. it make mi grow so much! it make mi change alot and how i think about my life and myself!

It a learning journey that i have been through and make mi feel that ... learning dun exhausts one mind =) I love learning and will continues.. Listening to everybody presentation kind of make mi noe more about my classmate toO !!! i love this session..

Was sick. Had a headache since early in the morning! Thanks for the concern, have been concering mi how am i , still having headache a not. that is so nice of u ! even get mi to purchase panadol thanks for the reminder i almost forget all bout it! Felt warmth... (hope to heal asap)

though was a bit sick. but met coll n fren. was ill.. but hav to be under the rain =( i forget to bring umbrella.. oh goOsh headache getting worst but no choice! thanks for ur concern.. for the first time coll send some sweet and warmth msg. never seen her like this. she say she is so sweet all along.. haha mayb to ur other fren but never to mi... wahaha... appreciate it ...

a sickly day i ever have!

Labels: HEADACHE, heal mi

I simply felt so tired!!!!

today early in the morning i started working! was kind of blur than expected! Headache since morning! Finally end work looking forward to this moment.. but i coul not go home. becus buddy just wanna meet so if i left home to bath sure one will be missing in not meeting.

I try to tahan all the way and hoping that evening will soOn arrive. I slack and kill all my time finally met one and we went shopping for my stuff.. I simply drag my foot all the way. just dunno y.. my mind just could stop thinking.. how much i feel i am about to collapse =X

RANDOM.... today i saw one super duper cute minnie =P Minnie hugging mickey.. so in love wif this.. But then i did not bring the minnie home... =( i will miss u in my slp that will be enough...

waited for 3 pm becus that is the time soOn we all will meet another buddy. but wen 3.27pm called received i tot was the arrival but then... was just a call to inform later what is the plan.. it does not matter... i am still waiting.. becus wat matters is everybody feel happy..

headache headache.. my vision got blurred! i am tired.. but i still smile... i knew i wont reach home in the evening .. But then i guess my face by that time simply gone sour! becus i am really having a terribly headache! ARG!!! shift my attention to others not to think of the pain.. but can't...

all of a sudden i felt a little happiness.. the appear.. but still headache can't be erased!!!

Current NO MOOD!!! headache and how come everybody got prob... i dun wan c anyone sad =( i dun wan !! to a few of u i noe u faces prob.. i hope u guys get donw wif ... move on...

i simply need painkiller!!!!!!!

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This week have been a tiring yet fun n loving week..

Studies schedule seems a bit pack! a bit tired. but i am still finding more motivation for studying.. More n More effort needed for my studies jia you ba!!

Out of so many weekdays, everyday i have been going to sch and meeting colleen. Still not too bad. Especially on thursday! teach audrey excel then went to meet colleen tgt. Then we all went to Marsiling then to causeway... We were all having fun n loving times! went home only at late hour. So tired but i sure have lots lots of memorable times!!!

Friday netball training omg! simply dead. nearly have to run 5 rounds in stadium =( scared me off!!! heng ar.. tired tired the tiredness last till today....

Saturday, early in the morning wake up by colleen and xiao yu.. almost died cus cnt slp wahaha.. but did not blame them becus i understand =) then packet MOS to colleen we all chat happily. then xiao yu reach soOn i left to meet jingwei.. OMG rashes all over his body! ARG! he slim down alot also! that was simply crazy! then meet ivy after he left! chit chat away then in the end, send xiao yu off then went back to colleen house bee also there =)

Its raining heavily! so i went to packet kfc for them.. we all eat togther happily!! Long time since a happy and warmth meal together! we all chit chat have fun in the roOm... hAhaha.. the bloster so nice to hug lo.. the blanket and stuff wahaha! for the first time i really use ppl bed stuff muhahaha!!!! i wan change pillow la =( i wan comfortable bloster =)

Tired man!! but i really enjoy today just 3 of us!!!! wahaha!! fun fun fun!!! long time since we slack this much and having fun!! I will miss this days..

tmr work oh no~tired! wish no work ... =( but yes for the pay...

Labels: i love and misses this few days

Another face that i make it out using my breakfast!!!

Its not about how expensive it is! Its not about how luxury it is! Its simply all about sincere! Its may be all the simplest dishes but its for sure the tasty one! because it uses effort, time, sincere to prepare!

Thank you my dear friend! You have been this nice to make breakfast and coOk dinner! tons of thank you i wish to tell her! but just sms her in short saying thank you! i do not know how then i can tell u how thankful i can be =)

For the first time friend cook mi dinner, only got i cook dinner for friend. For the first time i receive breakfast from friend. I only used to receive breakfast from mum becus she prepare for sis so shun bian prepare for me..

Thanks thanks thanks.....

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Labels: a day i simply love it so much

my friday lesson have simply change the entire me! it make me reflect alot alot till i felt i am such a lucky girl!

I dunno why i just feel that i am so lucky! when ever the times that i cnt get over it wif something there will be something or someone to say something and enlighten me in moving on...

My CATS teacher make me simply stop everything and listen to him! His words enlighten me!

He said something like. we are not vegetables or carrot! we are human so we can think and also we must learn to let go and move on! So what ever things it is. we must learn to take it easy and move on. So holiday mood time to say good bye to holiday mood and move on to motivating mood and start studying!

alot alot of things!!! i just wan to say big thank to this teacher ! i love my life now! i walk out of everything! and now i am leading better really way better! laughters everywhere now!

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Because you love me.

I am totally in love with this song! but the lyrics and music simply touches my heart! My mood is being drive on by this song. So emo. so sad. heart almost died... =X lol...

I really love this song i think is so meaningful worth listening..
every word touches my heart. every word and sentence simply is something that seems so familiar. tears rolled. just too into it ...

Was really tired today almost died off... splitting soOn!

i need a good slp tonight sweet dreams!

Labels: i need a sweet dreams

should be posting about friday meet up wif good buddies, sat malaysia trip or even sunday a tiring working n boring day... or mon sch days how was it.. but skip all those till photos if not to better happening mood then say about it...


Today sch end early so went out wif fren and met new friends too.. by righ everything turn out to be happy. i uses a new mood to c everything after a long time of not meeting... but sad to say it turn out damn fuck at the back!!!


hmmm... u are being hurt, u suffered big blow to u. worry that u wont have ur meals but thank, u did. quietly u finish up everything. and head back home. was simply worried i did not noe if u head home hence , browse at it. sudden did not catch it, too many ppl and its too dark my eye sight was pretty bad. i head to take bus home. but then i still worried. hence, i called up someone u are close to and ask how? i did not noe if u went home.

In the end i walk back and walk around the block area. everywhere just to check if u are there. U are not it makes mi more worried. sudden the one on the line said u were online. happy that u head home but then u wanted to drink that is wat u sms mi and u wanted to leave home is what u told her. So all i could do is to wait under the blk just in case u went off to do silly thing.

saw the mum i dunno what to say. the mum cal mi to go up , i said not i am going off soOn. actually i was real panic i dunno what to do. still i waited and she confirm that she will be at home. then is already 9 plus then i left. and head back home. u may not noe how much i am worried. i may not understand the sufferings. but i face an equal pain once! i understand how it felt like wen being hurt by the one that u love.

PAIN ! i understand... but u text mi in saying... i must be happy see that u suffer. Oh my do u noe how much i am worried and u said this it simply hurt me. while worrying u i almost forget about my safety. u dunno how much i wish to tell u i feel equal pain for u. cus i dun wish u to suffer over All this kind of thing.

wen i worry and panic u tot i was happy HAIX! i noe u i take time to understand u . i took effort to even noe more than i need. why u do not understand mi ? just y ? am i transparent that u cant c and dun even bother to noe? i think so...

I wasn't happy at all! i felt sorry for u! but u will never understand... i dun wan u to understand. i wan u to be happy. i wan u to simply just even to take a simple glance at mi... noe how i really feel. i actually uses what kind of attitude to c it ... INJURED!

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